Well That Is That
Apparently I am a loathsome manifestation worthy of H.P. Lovecraft on a good day. This is what my daughter thinks of me: > 27, 2013 at 9:48pmThere's nothing quite like knowing
things about other people that you know they don't know
that you know. Shall I display compassion? Or shall I
unleash the full force of my contempt upon these
creatures? It is a heady power I hold in my talons;
Obad-Hai, guide me in this, my time of indecision. The
forces of chaos compel me, but how much horror and
loathing shall I inflict? Wounded beasts howl silently on
either side of me; one I have decided to show mercy to,
the other I know from experience is best ignored...but the
temptation to goad is strong, and the sting has been
placed in my hand by my prey itself. How best to stalk
this beast which, when caught, will only gnash its teeth
and writhe in self-pity as it does even when unmolested?
Its head is too full of bees to make a trophy of, its skin
too diseased to dance in. To the human I say, live; I
speak to you to offer help, but I am definitely going to
take a few potshots while I have the chance and
you're just gonna have to deal. To the monster I say, die,
die, embrace the oblivion you have always craved and
forced upon your appalled offspring, read my words and
tremble for to block you would be a mercy and I have
nothing in my heart for you but hate as that is all you
have earned. Perhaps it will recognize itself in this
screed, but as this creature is cursed to see only
infinite reflections of itself and hear only echoes of its
own imbecilic rage, I have my doubts. There is one and
only one that I pity; there is only one I believe should
continue existing, because he has the potential to love
and learn and grow, although I will not be there to prove
it. I have no stake in this, only the desire to maintain a
neutral alignment, which necessitates the doing of a few
good deeds. If I can offer assistance to him, if I can
teach him something, if I can get him to see himself
through my eyes, then I will be satisfied. Then I can
allow myself an evil
act; then I can taste the blood of the fool, although I
know it is a poison. What have I drank in my life but
poison? It is monster's milk. What violence can I do to
you, so many miles away; what anguish can I inflict upon
you, who cares nothing for me because I am no longer what
you wanted me to be? Perhaps by being myself I have
already done enough. Can I afford to thrive on spite for a
short time, or will it prove so addictive that if I do not
restrain myself, I will turn into you after all? These are
rhetorical questions, as neither one of you has anything
to say that I care to hear; one of you may find redemption,
although you worship wrongly and offend both god and
man. The monster is doomed, trapped in its own hell like
Lucifer in the ice, betrayer of kin, betrayer of guests,
betrayer of all that is natural, and as I have already
climbed its stinking flanks and escaped into Purgatory,
why should I again cross Ptolomaea to spite it?
That seems to be the end of that relationship.
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Hey, you crazy bastard, it's me Ray from takemyadviceplease.blogspot.com What? No more posts? Ran out of stuff to say?? You can't quit on me, dude! Get off your ass and post! Writers write, that's what we do! I gave up too, but now I'm back. How bout you??
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